Happy new year?

OK. Fine. I've had a few drinks (it is New Years Eve after all) and I'm not really sure what I am planning to say here. But since we are at precipice of a new year, I feel like I should say something.

I've been blogging for about 9 months. It was an almost daily occurrence early on, but I sort of ran out of things to say after awhile. And time. I don't have enough time to formulate and write a good blog every day. A blog is sort of like a diary, except I can't say EVERYTHING I feel because anyone can read it. But I say most of what I feel.

I've come to realize that I am a stress case. I thrive on stress but it also, well, stresses me out. And then I start to think about and process all of the stressors and it continues to build. So having an outlet is helpful for me.

One thing I'd like to interject here is that I am REALLY enjoying the buzz from the 3-4 Moscow mules I had tonight. Or whatever they're called. And it's almost midnight and I'm still awake!

What has 2011 meant for me? What will 2012 bring? 2011 was a difficult year and I'm glad to bid it goodbye. So, goodbye, 2011. I hope that 2012 is a better year. My goal for the coming year are to work on being a better parent, get ABVP certified, do some more triathlons (it's been a few years), and maybe complete another marathon. Maybe.

But mostly I would like my sanity back. I know it seems weird to say that, but there are times when I really feel lost. I like to have control over things and lately there is much that is out of my control. I don't know what will change it all, or if I will ever regain control, but I will continue to try. Or, maybe I have to accept the loss of control. That's ok too as long as I feel ok. Yes, I do realize that this paragraph is not very well written.

Don't get me wrong, I am fine. I just hope to be better in 2012. I hope I am healthy. I hope to improve on the way I relate to people. I hope that my business does well. I hope that I stop freaking out about doing spays. I hope that I give more than I take. I hope to become more fit. I hope that I have fun. I hope that I don't completely f**k up my kids. I hope to let go of the anger that I feel too often. I hope to communicate better. I hope I am grateful.

And I hope that your 2012 is all that you want it to be as well.